Heart crying out loud......

Hi all,
Actually I got 2 posts regarding my fishing trip and tree cutting experience to post but I decide to forgo them for the moment due to some traumatic shock I had during the weekend.

As I mentioned above, last weekend was a shock and sad phase of my life. I happen to know that one of my friend pass away on Friday. He was young, intelligent and full of drive. Talented man who always knows what he wants in life. He was away from family most of the time due to overseas studies, working etc……

I went to his funeral, saw his dad crying…. At that moment… a pang of sadness hit me badly. What can be more torturous than sending your own son off to the afterlife? I can sense his sorrow and grief. My heart pains deeply but there was nothing I can offer to lessen his grief. Maybe if we care more about people around us, we wouldn’t regret when they are gone. I really regret the many times that I reject going drinking with him when he was around. If only time can be reversed, I will do anything to spend more time with him. So many if only, but what is done cannot be reversed…… I strongly URGED all those reading this post now to cherish what they have – be it family, friends or even enemies. When one is dead, there’s nothing left including hate or any negative feelings towards the dead.

This really impacts me a lot. Why am I in Perth away from my family? I am supposed to be working for a good life (good pay, relax hours and job scope) in Perth. I can say that I hit my target but something is missing in me. Choices are always made in life and I wonder if I made the right one this time. From the funeral, I suddenly miss my mum and dad. I wanted to hug them and tell them I LOVE them although I don’t know how to show concern for them. From appearance, I am a cold person with no expression on my face, guess I inherit that from my dad, but really… that moment really hit me with homesickness so badly.

Well… I want to take this chance to say this to those who I know – my pri, sec, poly, uni and friends that I have now, I wish to keep closer contacts with you guys. I like to confer my gratitude for enduring all my shortcomings and still maintaining the friendship with me.

Now for me, I shall try to get over this shock soon. Btw I hope 3 of my other friends in Singapore – Andy, Ben and Xiao Bai Cai to take good care for themselves.